Thursday, February 4, 2010


It’s 2:17 A.M and I’m in my bed writing this post.
I just slept for 20 minutes and don’t know why I got up…
I’m scared. Really scared right now XD. I can’t stop thinking about death.
It’s killing me right now.
It’s making me cry.
I’m scared of what’s going to happen. Scared to die. Scared of being buried.
Scared of being alone.
Right now it feels like as if everything is closing up on me. I can’t breathe.
It feels like as if this might be my last post. I’m scared.
I’m scared. I’m scared. I’m scared. I’m scared. I’m scared. I’m scared. I’m scared.
O God it will be dark and silent.
I know why God created us. But at the moment I can’t stop questioning him. Even though I know I won’t get any answers.
How I wish I was a really really really really really good muslim.
I’m scared. I can’t stop saying it.
I have to face death. Just like all those who did and those who have to. No matter what form it comes in XD.
And all I can do is wait. And try to be a better muslim.
O God help us all. And guide us to the straight path XD.

G’nyte *cry1*.


  1. Awwwwwww! Just keep XD'ing and everything will be alright. :D

  2. I was going to post a completey serious comment until I read Talz's comment.
    hahahahahaha Keep XD'ing :D

  3. I wanted to write a post just like this. But couldn't find the right words!

  4. I just wrote down what I was thinking XD.
    Gosh I was scared XD.

  5. cooool!!
    yah keep XD'ing.

    btw doesnt help.