Happy Birthday!

Normally it would be like....
You'd be sleeping. IT'S 12 O'CLOCK. We all gather and come in your room...Holding the cake I made XD.
Wake you up...And..."HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA!" =D =D =D And hugs and smiles...
Always made chocolate...Even though you never liked it! XD. 

Now...

Today I made a cake...Yes chocolate again....

IT'S 12 O'CLOCK! XD. Nothing happens. I'm all panicked in the kitchen and my heart beating fast...Because I still have so  much to do :S

It's 12:06....

Mom... "You can wish me at 12......".

"MOM. It's already 12 XD". *Walks out of the kitchen*.

Mom in the kitchen. Bhai in his room. Annie doing her own work. Crying too. XD.

Laiba busy playing with the kids...and doesn't remember it's your birthday...

All so separated. So I just walk in to your room. Sit down. Think of it again...

Of how it would've been if you were still here. :S XD. 

Then around 12:30...We cut the cake =D Bhai cut it. I wanted to cut it. D: Weird I tell you =[ 

Hehe. I remember telling Rija and SaraH earlier this year that how much I wished for you to be
 old...too old...so that you could do nothing...And then *I* would do everything for you. 
*I* would. 
Don't have more words...or anything to say...
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Just...Happy 59th Birthday! XD. =)

(2007) - Dammam. =]

(2007) - Eid. Hehe. Love your smile...

(2009). Home. Meh! Strong grip Xd. 

Dammam again. All the cats came. =| 

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1st March - 2009. Last picture ever. XD.

For you. =]
Love you. 

A post for the man I loved.

9:46 P.M.

4 weeks and 6 days ago I saw you for the last time. I wish I knew it was the last time.

Thursday Morning. I should’ve been up. I should’ve seen you leave…I should’ve hugged you. 

I didn’t.  

Tomorrow. Thursday again. Going to be 5 weeks. One month and four days. 

5 weeks ago You went missing. We got worried. All sorts of possibilities in my head.

Maybe you fainted some where.

Maybe some one stole your mobile that’s why you weren’t picking up our calls.

Maybe you got injured and can’t remember the way back home.

Maybe…Maybe.

Friday I told a friend I won’t eat till you come back. And that I’ll eat with you.

Saturday morning. I cried. Wondering where you are…and have you eaten anything.

Saturday evening. Annie on the phone. I heard her say in a weak voice…

“You positive?”

My glasses fell. I backed into my room. I screamed. I kicked. I fell down. I pulled my hair. 

People came running saying what’s wrong…calm down…and all I was screaming…

“I want you back. Its not true.”

They forced me to drink water. I wanted to take the glass and throw it away. Break it.

Destroy everything. I didn’t. I felt really weak.

Monday evening. I saw you. 

They didn’t let me touch you. I was so upset about that. 

Aap meray ho. And and meri marzi. So I touched your arm when nobody was looking.

But I couldn’t feel you. You were wrapped up in…clothes…and cotton.

You had cotton on your nose too. Fresh red blood on it. 5 days in the freezer. And yet you looked as if you were sleeping. XD. I REALLY wanted to touch your face. 

I’m so mad. Why didn’t they find your glasses and ear-piece?

Main screw ker doon gi sab ko. Aap wait kero.

You know what Dad…Bhai has really changed. It still feels like a bad dream. A part of me doesn’t believe it. Like the bell will ring any second…I’ll run and open the door…and there XD. You’re standing. And you’ll tell me to tell Mama to get the dinner ready XD.

I love you. And I feel so unloved now. I took out your pens from your briefcase :$.

All I needed was a little more time with you. I had it planned you know.

I’ll grow up. You’ll be old. You’ll have no other option but to depend on me. And I'll be so happy. That was going to be the time when *I* was going to do something for you XD.

I wanted to show you what I could be. Show you that you need no one more than your daughter. 

A few months ago I actually told Rija and SaraH that I can’t wait for you to be old XD. 

I HAD TO DO SO MUCH FOR YOU!

LOOK AT ME NOW DAD! Jus look at me.

I’m heart broken. I feel empty. I lie to people EVERYTIME they ask me how am I.

I can’t concentrate on school. I can’t do anything. EVERYTHING. Reminds. Me. Of. YOU!

The sofa you sat on always. I sit on it at times. I try to feel you. =/

Mama leaves the bedroom light on every night. No one sleeps there now. Because Laiba gets upset.

I can like still like feel it. I’m on the computer. And you come in. Look at me. Then the screen. Then you jus take your blanket and go to your room. Or you jus sit with me.

Come sit with me now. :’) I’d hug you so hard =/

I miss coming home and you opening the door for me and hiding EVERYTIME behind the door XD. It used to make me angry *hehem*. Do it now. I’ll be more than happy to see you hiding some where right now.

I miss your fries. And zo my gawd. Your Salad was The Best Salad ever (Y).

I miss you watching T.v on loud volume XD.

I miss you telling the same joke over and over again. That used to annoy me too. And now I’m dying to hear your voice.

I miss you calling me every night before you slept. 

I miss you bringing pepsi for me every time you came home. XD. You were the only one who let me drink how much ever I wanted. And and I remember Bhai stopping me and you’d jus take the bottle from him and give it to me.

I miss pulling your cheeks. I loved your dimple. And I think you looked awesome in white hair. =)

I miss everything.

I used to get tears in my eyes every time you smiled and were happy. XD.

I could’ve done anything for you. Seriously.

I wanted to go before you. =/ I’m so upset now.

I jus hope you’re in peace XD. InshAllah InshAllah InshAllah. =).

And what kills me the most is when I think about the pain you felt that day. 

Whether it was for a minute. Second. Millisecond. I wish I could take the pain away from you.

It really hurts to think or see some one I dearly love in pain. 

I feel as if I can tolerate it more =/ You be happy. XD.

I broke my shoe today. We were jus going to enter Faisliyah. And it broke. It were the boots you loved XD. I was so upset. XD. And because they had like a huge sole. I looked like a retard walking…And some people were laughing at me…So Annie told me to take the other shoe off too =|

So bahaha I walked around Faisliyah without shoes Papa :D It was funny :P

So we bought me new shoes \m/ Annie said buy pumps <.< I went for slippers instead =D And and like they were all so expensive =| But I got these awesome slippers I really love jus for 51 \m/  They’d fit you too Dad. =)

I was upset when Mom gave your clothes away. XD. 

Like not upset. I felt angry. Possessive. My dad. His things are mine too. =/

I know I know I act like a kid at times =/ I just love you a lot.

“Rubbir Humhuma Kama Rabba yaani Sagheerun”.

What upset me more today was when I heard about Ammar…Grade 10…XD.

Road accident too.

I jus hope he didn’t feel pain either. XD.

And that his soul is at peace. And God forgives his sins. Makes day of judgment easy for him like you. XD. InshAllah. And give his family patience jus like he gave us XD.

And I’m still going to try to do all that I wanted to do if you were still here. XD.

I love you a lot. XD. 

PCG =D

Hey =D XD.

Omg. I’m blogging after a long time XD. And I have a feeling that it’s going to be one long post =D =D HOW HAVE YOU BEEN? I’m great. Perfect. =) Ly.

Baha get to the point silly Nosh! -_- So so I had an amazing weekend XD.

Wednesday…Wasted the whole day *Proud smile*

Thursday… Got up 8:30 in the morning…[Fainted? It’s ok honey =/ Even I was shocked :P]…Till 10 I was quietly cleaning here and there XD. At 12 left for a friends place…came back around 6-somehting…Then went out at night. Had a great time with Annie XD.

Friday… Got up at 7 XD. [DIED? It’s ok I died too :P And and can you believe it that I just slept 5 hours XD? I know I know you don’t :P Melaw buchaw <3]

Went to PCG. [I didn’t know what it stood for =/ Pakistan Cultural Gathering. -_-]

And from 10 to 6 me and Yashma Akmal [A junior..In grade 9 XD] were together XD. I had an amazing time.

Everything was free there :P That was one reason we were so happy :P XD Psh. :P

Any ice cream. Any juice. This and that. STICKERS! =D Balloons (A).

Cotton Candy \m/ And etc. –

So first the teenagers had a tug of war :P Me and Yashma were together \m/ And like Duh my team won :P And and for that we got SO cool rings (A). =D

Like two rings that fit together to give one XD. Just like those heart lockets..That can be separated in to two. One person keeps one half and the other keeps the other one. Yeah exactly just like that shorty ;) Hiba took my half of the ring XD. ROFL. Says she’s going to wear it for the rest of her life :P And after 10 years when we’ll meet…We’ll join the rings :P XD. Oh Hiba I love you. <3

[~NEWS BREAK~

Welcome to Nosh News (NN). Aaj ki Taaza tareen important khabar yay hai k Nosheen Malik Ghulaam Nasrullah ki Birthday hai 7^th March ko. Psh.

Aaj k liyay bus itna…Miltay hain aglay haftay isi waqt per. :D]

Welcome back to the post -_- Omg. My feet ache XD. And and the liner-effect o_O NEEND! But I’m not going to sleep before I upload this post. Hpmh. Ily.

Oh well after that…You know those air-thingy’s? Like this thing filled with air…are huge…and and kids jump in those :D So yeah what-ever-that-thing-is-called…We jumped in it *shows teeth*. Ouch. I don’t know how the kids jump. I got hurt -_- And I was scared =/ Oh oh OMG! This lil girl there…Around 6 came up to me…(Me, Namwer, Hiba, Yashma…)…Were sitting in that air thing…And said…

G = “Aap yahan say hatain…Mujhay YAHIN jump kerna hai”

N = “Nae, Jump some where else…I came here first”

(Psh. She didn’t have one front tooth -_-]

*The girl kicks me*

N = “Did you just kick me? Go jump there” *points at the other corner*

G = “Kyun? Wahan jump kerna zaroori hai?”

N = “Tau yahan Jump kerna zarooori hai” *Pissed*

G = “Batameez…Moti…Naughty” *Scratches my arm* o_O. Now Hiba comes in to the scene… “Kia hai? Tameez nae hai?”

G = “Kaali Choyai (Black Mouse) Aap ko kuch kaha?”

*We all burst out laughing* But you have NO idea….HOW pissed *I* was XD.

Phir uski thori aur baysti ki humnay but she still wouldn’t shutup =/

(I HATE IT XD. I JUST HATE IT WHEN KIDS DO NOT HAVE RESPECT! MY BLOOD STARTS BOILING! AAAGH. *Shoots herself*)

It’s going to be inappropriate to mention the next part…But I want to mention it *g1*

She saw Yashma sitting next to me…And said to her… “Potty ker ri ho?” -_-

Somebody shoot me. I swear. XD. *g1* *g1* *g1*

So well…She left. Thank God -_- So when we came out of that air-thing…She was passing by -_- With her Mom. And I didn’t see her XD. Next thing I know is that she hits me on my butt =/ I was SO pissed XD. Her Mom saw it. And completely ignored it. So well…I controlled myself at that point XD.

Ate food then – Then then the McDonald people came=D [I know -_- I’m still a kid (A)]

BALLOOONS! Nice colours \m/ I took all colours :$ And and I had ‘em with me safe….but JUST when we were about to leave XD…I left my bag and balloons…Came back..And the Balloons were gone. *cries on the bed* Just one was left XD. And woh bhi I gave to this lil boy who was looking at me =) He was SO cute XD. He didn’t know how to talk…but he was trying XD XD XD XD XD.

And then there was face painting. :D YES! I GOT A BUTTERFLY XD. A green and black one on my left cheek :D I know…am a Kid again =/ So so…Guess what happened XD? [Aw mela bucha XD. *hugs* :P So like (*Eating Red Lays* :P)]

When Me and Yashma were in the waiting line…That Girl and her Mom were there -_- So blah I got my turn first…And the Mom said… “Are you a Littler girl? Stupid girl. Face painting kerwa rahi hai” and THERE! I HAD ENOUGH XD. I said “Aap ka kia masla hai?”

She said… “Main yahan pehlay ayi thi”…I said… “Tau main kia karun?”

(I know I was rude XD. But I was REALLY pissed…She should’ve seen her face…as if I was a dirty lil creature XD.) Then she kept on saying mean stuff to me. I completely ignored her. :P ROFL! Seriously XD. If people weren’t there…I think she would’ve killed me XD. Or slapped me. =/ Oh well. I’m strong. I know how to take my revenge XD. Seriously I’m not really that innocent and nice XD. Just DON’T EVER cross your limits with me XD. And I won’t cross mine. I do respect. But not to those who don’t respect me.

Oh well I LOVE Yashma for saying….”Something” on her face XD.

And yeah that still wasn’t it :P She went…And started telling this other lady about me. -_-

Grow up. $&%^&$^%&$%$^%$%#&$#&% -_- *g1*.

We had a quiz thing. General Knowledge. I passed Eheehe *shows teeth* XD =D

And and then we had this game called “Scavenger hunt” XD. 8 groups…With 5 girls in each. I was in the group with hot smesky Minarat chicks. Oh well we lost :$ :P

Anyhow. Me and Yashma had SO much fun together XD. And if I start listing everything we did…This is going to be a VERY long post…And people won’t read it =|

And if you have reached THIS line without skipping a line or without yawning and getting bored…I just love you. – From the core of my heart --

So I’ll just skip what we did through the hours and should tell you about what happened at 6 XD. This was when Annie and Ayesha asked me…If we should go home XD.

I said “No…Lucky Draw is going to take place :D”

~After half an hour~

“Sheena, Please am really tired…Let’s go…You still didn’t get anything”

“Please…Thori dayr aur XD”

~After twenty more minutes~

“C’mon…Legs ache...Got loads of work to do at home”

“Annie…See it’s my birthday…And and I KNOW God is going to me a gift =)”

~In that LAST 10 minutes~

I won thrice XD. I cried 8-). Like I KNEW it. And the fact that it came true…That god did give me a gift…Jus made me cry XD.

So I get to do free shopping at Centre point XD. I shall by me new shoes for my birthday =D And and ROFL. I also won the glucose blood level thing machine XD. I could’ve won the Dvd or the game boy or free tickets to Makkah XD…But I didn’t XD. And you know what…Mom was just telling me yesterday…That she thinks her blood sugar level is high XD. *hehem* No Mom can check it herself :P :D

*Eating Sour punk*

I’m REALLY tired XD.*Keyboard falls* Oopsy.

`I CAN write more…But:

(1.) Tired.

(2.) Got hw to do 8-)

(3.) Too long = People will get bored

(4.) I love you *hehem* <.< *shows teeth*. I really do.

I don’t want to read it and take out my mistakes XD. Just tell me if I have any mistake –

G’nyte, Slptyte, Swtdreams XD.

Take care and have a nice day tomorrow. Love you.

Simply...Screwed?

Achay bachay nae routay. Sirf achay say parhtay hain. Aur acha result latay hain. Aur Mama Papa ko kush kertay hain. Phir waldayn du-aa-ayn daytay hain. Phir baray ho ker achi job milti hai. [Phir chocolates khaatay hain :D :D :D]
So what if I don’t get a good result? *dies*.
Yes yes I know I’ll still get into a university and bla bla and on…
Jao marjao. =/ Na it wasn’t for you my dear Reader <3 :P XD :D =) [Just felt like saying it -_- Kill me.]
Ok so BLAH! *cries on the bed* Yes, *sniff* I got my Chem and Phy paper back *wipes away tears*. And yes it wasn’t what I expected. :’(
The Chem unit 4 was literally on my finger tips. I expected a B…But bla *sniff*.
And physics…Parhnay k baaad bhi. Kill physics. =(
And bury it in Mars so it never comes back. =(
I should get an award for my Lameness :D Nae? =D =D BleUgh. -_-
The burn hurts. Yes that burn that I got on Thursday on my thumb right hand walla while ironing my clothes. Stewpid. Wohi jaga mili thi burn honay kay liyay. Pagal iron.*g1*
And it’s like on that joint-thing. I write. It hurts. And eff. In the exam we have to write and write and write…and stop. =/
Ok Blah.
OMG!!! I am supposed to be pissed. YOU KNOW HOW THEY SPELLED MY NAME ON MY IQAMA!!??? YOU KNOW HOW BADLY IT PISSES ME OFF IF SOME ONE SPELLS MY NAME WRONG!? I WILL KILL YOU IF YOU DO NOT KNOW THAT -_-
It’s N-O-S-H-E-E-N M-A-L-K.
They spelled it as:
NUSHIN MALAK! *bangs head in the wall*. Malik bhi nae. Malak ho main.
Dude. Get a life. And spell the names right. -_- Nosheen Malik. -_-
Oh blah my head hurts looking at the capital letters. Seriously. When I type in capital letters. MEANS IM REALLY PISSED!!
Oh oh I had a weird dream last night.
Like um. Urdu debates were co. Blah. And I was in the debates. And I didn’t write my debate and I was screwed cuz of Mrs. R. [Anyhow, I’m not in the debates this year]
And then I see Mrs. Sm. And blah. I can’t exactly write what happened next. 8-)
It’s Bhai’s birthday on Friday XD. =D
He had to go back today XD. But nae gaya :P He didn’t even buy the ticket -_-
Says he doesn’t feel like going XD. And wants to stay for some time more XD
Alay mela bucha :’) Mota. He had to pick me up from school today…and I waited and waited and waited…I came home at 12 [AN HOUR LATE] -_- He was sleeping -_-
And hmm I was just wondering today that…like don’t men get annoyed…
Like a married man. Has a job. Wife does a job too. Leaves his office to go pick up his wife. And does this and that…Don’t they get pissed =/?
Oh blah. Why am I worrying -_-
I’ll drive myself. Won’t let him do my work *hehem*. :P :D XD.
*Yawn*. I’m supposed to be sleeping XD. And I feel bad cuz I’m up and I didn’t wash the dishes. =/ Too tired to get up. And put my hands in water. Even though it’s not so cold today. WHY isn’t it cold today :’(. I like cold. <3
My bed is calling me. -_-
G’nyte –
[AND OMG IF I DID SO BAD AT UNIT 4 WHICH I KNEW WHAT WILL HAPPPEN IN UNIT 5 THAT I DON’ T KNOW :O! *dies*]

Family.

It happened. Topic came up. Annie cried XD.
Bhai started crying because he understands what his sister feels.
What she feels...Oh Annie XD. If you ever read my this post...You'll know how much I'm proud of you. I have tears in my eyes man. XD
I started crying when I saw brother cry. XD
Cuz I know what he feels...
I NEVER want to see you guys cry ever again XD. Don't cry...Ever.
O how I wish I was older than both of you.
I would do everything for you both.
But I don't want to see a fucking tear in your eyes.
I HATE...HATE....HATE seeing you both like that.
Mama and Papa...Just wait for a few years...
I WILL do something. You will see. The world will see.
I know it. I just know it. I will do it.
*Wipes away tears*.
Your tears are really precious to me.

Death.

It’s 2:17 A.M and I’m in my bed writing this post.
I just slept for 20 minutes and don’t know why I got up…
I’m scared. Really scared right now XD. I can’t stop thinking about death.
It’s killing me right now.
It’s making me cry.
I’m scared of what’s going to happen. Scared to die. Scared of being buried.
Scared of being alone.
Right now it feels like as if everything is closing up on me. I can’t breathe.
It feels like as if this might be my last post. I’m scared.
I’m scared. I’m scared. I’m scared. I’m scared. I’m scared. I’m scared. I’m scared.
O God it will be dark and silent.
I know why God created us. But at the moment I can’t stop questioning him. Even though I know I won’t get any answers.
How I wish I was a really really really really really good muslim.
I’m scared. I can’t stop saying it.
I have to face death. Just like all those who did and those who have to. No matter what form it comes in XD.
And all I can do is wait. And try to be a better muslim.
O God help us all. And guide us to the straight path XD.
Ameen
G’nyte *cry1*.

B for...

Hey B for People. =/
I’m bored. I’m borde. I’m baa-rd. I’m bor-rrr-duhhh. -_-
I…Um…am bored. Like bored bored. B-O-R-E-D. Like hello bored?
B for Bat. Bin. Ball. Blade. Brown. Bet. And B for bored *bangs head in the wall*.
Ah. B for Bang =D Aaaaaaahhh. *dies*.
No school. Slept till 1. Had breakfast. [B for beast too :D]. Then…um I don’t remember :S Crapness. Brabness. =/
And bla did 3 chapters of biology [B for Biology]. Can’t do more. Nothing going in my brain [B for brain]. So I’ll do one more chapter before sleeping XD.
And tomorrow Rija is coming. We’re gonna do Physics \m/ [Hopefully =/].
And and Bhai [B for Bhai] is coming tonight :D :D XD :’) Well, just for 3-4 days =/
Anyhow. Um. I have nothing to do man =/ Seriously.
Stewpid stewpid stewpid ummm what? :S Me?
Huh how dare you :O! Ok sorry :$ I don’t know what to write =/
Omg! Sucks. Bucks!
Ok bye [B for Bye *bangs head in the wall*].
G’nyte.
No slptytes or swtdreams. Don't take care. [B for bake <3]

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HEY =D
Yes you got it….Today was great and awesome and nice too XD :D
Last night when I got the news about Mariam Z….the first thing I did was call SaraH and told her that we’re going to school tomorrow XD. And that I’m not going to miss something like this ever. :D And SaraH was saying she hates me *hehem*. Cuz she was in the mood of not-coming. And how she had planned she’d study and everything and I ruined it for her. But kertay kertay she said she’ll come if I make loads of pancakes for her XD. And I said ok XD. So last night I was up till 4 XD. Making pancakes for her =/
And then she called in the morning to tell me that she’s not coming. =/
Cuz she was sick. *hehem* Bahahahaha. Oye shh. Not funny :P -_-
[Get well soon girlfiend *:5* (L)].
And I was so sleepy and tired to be pissed at her *hehem*.
Anyhow…The thing I came to school just lasted for like 2 minutes XD. I clapped as hard as I could :D. And you should’ve seen Mariam’s expression when she was on the stage XD. So proud to have so smart friends. *wipes away tears*. :’)
And *hehem* we hugged her so many times :P :D XD.
Hope you do great agay bhi in life Mariam XD :D :D :D [Pst. Thank you for the cake :P]
Oh I received a message \m/ It’s Hajraa :D :D So she’s been high and weird all day. Called so many times and was laughing on everything I said :P
Specially the part about the chicken XD *dies of embarrassment*
Like in my last post I was happily telling that…
“…..Nosh: “A chicken. A chicken and hen are two different animals”
Rija: “Where does a Chicken come from?”
Nosh: “A hen” -_-
Yes this is how dumb I am -_- Hen is a male chicken. I know now. :P”
LOL! When Rija told me in the morning that hen is a FEmale. I wanted to die :P
“This is how dumb I am” And then I do another dumb thing by saying it’s male. :P Males don’t lay eggs *bangs head in the wall*.
And when I told my Mom she laughed so much :O! Anyhow.
Hen is female. A female hen who lays eggs. I will never forget now. :$
So bla. I was free almost the entire day. In double maths I was SO lonely *wipes away tears*. So I did my Chem paper XD. And then played table-tennis \m/ :P :D
OMG! *dies of laughter*. Hajra’s Grandmother told her that she made that poem thingy…“Lul-la Lul-la lorry….Doodh ki katory...”
*dies again*. HAHA!
Oh and we were talking about our bachpun-stuff today…I’ll tell you a few :D
Hajra’s maid almost kidnapped her :O!
Amna used to feel sorry for the maid so she used to make the maid sit and do her work. *hehem*.
When Iqra was 6 months…Her brother took the scissors and cut her ear. =/
Zonia put hot iron on her sisters arm :O! And and her maid was mean to her…so she sharpened two pencils and put them up the maid's nose. HAHAH! *hehem*.
As goes for me. My mom tells me that I was so fat that nobody picked me up for long :’( *hehem*. Meaness. And that I ate a lot since the beginning :P
And in Chem I was SO bored. I was drawing emoticons on my book. =/
O crap…
Got loads to write but it’s 11:40 :O! And I have to go study =(
So I’ll stop here XD. =)
G’nyte, Sleeptyte, Sweetdreams XD. Take care and have a nice day tomorrow =)
~Love you~

Love my life.

Hey again :P :D
I knew I wouldn’t be able to stay away for long without telling you how my day went :P
SO OMG!!! IT WAS A NICE DAY! =D But the starting was a lil…Sleepy :P
I was SO sleepy in the first two physics lesson. =/ I was just looking at Mrs. blankly…And and after that we had a lesson off. Then Biology. As usual it took us 2 lessons in checking just 2 questions -_- After that we were free the rest of the day =D
And guess what…We didn’t have the Chem unit test for which I studied -_-
No school tomorrow *d4*. And MAYBE I’ll go to school on Wednesday to chill with Rija and SaraH and Hajra \m/
So last night at 10 I went to bed. But couldn’t sleep XD. Even though I was so tired and wanted to sleep so badly…[cuz I m-ed y.]
But then I slept by 11 I guess XD. And got up around 2-ish and just said “Omg, I love you sleep.” -_- *hehem*.
Oh wait lunch time \m/ Blah. Daal. Shoot me. I don’t like any daal but Masr (L).
~Brb Lowe~ *hehem*.
Back.
And now I got hiccups. O I love my hiccups. :P :D And my eyes hurt too.
No no I didn’t cry :P I’m just sleepy :S? And now my throat hurts. =/ *Hiccups getting louder* -_- :P
Ok so um. I feel weird because everyday I come home and get the lunch ready. Make tea. Wash the dishes. And get lost to my room. But today Halushka [Annie’s friend] made rice :P Annie made tea. Mom washed the dishes :O! IT’S MY JOB :O! :’(
O and crapness. I’m such a retard. I thought today was 22nd January *bangs head in the wall*. It’s 1st Feb. =/ AND TOMORROW IS LAIBA’S BIRTHDAY! *dies*.
*Still hiccupping* She’s going to be 11 mashAllah *wipes away tears*. :’)
Ok ok back to the school day :P So Hajra gave me a pack of Extra ki chewing gums...Anndddd me, Rija and SaraH E finished the whole pack 8-)
And and tried making huge bubbbllllleess =D I made the largest \m/ =D
LOL! I can’t explain you exactly what else we did with the chewing gums 8-)
So neexxtttt. We [Hajra, Rija, SaraH E, Rabia, Zunman and meee =D] sat there infront of AS ki class till home time XD. And Zo me God. We started talking about one thing…and ended up on a totally different topic XD.
We talked about animals XD. :P :D O and I can’t tell you what we talked about 8-)
It’s um a lil too embarrassing. :P Including Panda and crabs *hehem* (6) :P
And and chickens too \m/
So this how a lil part of the conversation went…
Nosh: “So you can take the chick home…and slaughter it” - *gives an evil laugh*
Rija: “But if I keep it alive…It’ll grow into a hen” - *with a huge smile*
Nosh: “No, it won’t.”
Rija: “What will it be then?”
Nosh: “A chicken. A chicken and hen are two different animals”
Rija: “Where does a Chicken come from?”
Nosh: “A hen” -_-
Yes this is how dumb I am -_- Hen is a male chicken. I know now. :P
And and pata hai we 4 have such a different choice of animals that we want to keep when we grow up :P Hajra wants an elephant. SaraH E wants tiger cub. Rija wants a chimpanzee [one she would pamper. =/] And I want a Horse <3.
And then kertay kertay we ended up talking about grandparents. Like like we were imagining the grandmother sitting on the rocking chair. Knitting. The cat sitting at her feet. And a cup of coffee on the table <3 And and the grandfather is like sitting listening to the radio. The news. “And the war is over.” And they both are worried cuz their son was in the war. Scared for his death. But then the door bell rings. Grandmother opens the door. There he is. *wipes away tears*. “Ma, I’m back” And he picks her up. And goes round and round. :P :D And then Grandfather comes and says “I’m proud of you my son.” XD. Nice nae =)? :P Say yes. -_- :P
And you know what I feel like having Karaylay for some weird reason since 2 days.
*bangs head in the wall*.
And then we gave Personality awards :D :D :D \m/
Started off the SaraH E. We thought and thought. But didn’t come up with why we love her so much. Why I love her so much.
So we gave her the award for something, the white matter in her, the hidden thing because of which we love her. “Everybody loves SaraH.” (L).
Hajra got the award…Because she’s the type of a friend who would do anything for you XD. Sacrifices a lot =D And she’s wise. And WE LOVE HER LAUGH!! XD =D =D
Zunman got the award of being…the type of a person who really cares about what is going to happen before she does anything. Quiet. Lost in her world. XD (Y).
Rabia got one for being really friendly =) Rabbit :P *hehem*.
Rija…I can talk and talk about this girl XD. A person who’d give you the best advice. A person who’d listen to you with care. A person who is really good at heart XD.
A person who I try to follow myself XD. :’)
Last is ME! =D They said that I am really strong XD. And that if a person loves me once…I’d love the person a billion times back. XD *hehem*.
Oh and Mariam Z. was passing by at that time…So we asked her to sit with us and we gave her an award too :D Because she’s a really nice girl…Helping…Annndddddddd I never saw her angry :P and she’s a great friend XD =D
And then we gave out the sucky awards :P
Hajra got one...Because she sucks at lying :P and for her fake attitude :P
[Girl I can even tell on the phone that you’re lying or something *hehem* :P]
Sarah got it for something again that we don’t know about :P
Zunman got it for being really quiet -_-
Rija because she can’t say “No” to anyone -_- [In class if some one asks her to do something…I’m the one saying “No” for her -_-]
And Mariam got one because she sucks at choosing what she sucks at :P *hehem*.
I got one because of my mood swings -_- Everyone hates it when I do that. And Rija hates it when I fight with SaraH and get pissed at her :P
Oh and hahaha we gave a sucky award to Rabia cuz she multitasks….and we can’t do it as well as she does :P *hehem*.
Oh and *yawn* I’m going to sleep now. Then get up raat ko and study till morning \m/
O and I took part in Urdu Debates again for Rija XD.
And so *yawn* G’nyte XD. I’m home alone once again -_- And I feel like having something sweet. -_-
Sleeptyte, Sweetdreams, Take care and have a nice day tomorrow XD.
~Lowe you~
<3

40 minutes.

HEY! =D =D
Am I breaking the dare :O!? No right =/? It was to not to tweet for 3 weeks =/
Shoot me. I have twitter open right now *hehem*.
So so so so I CAN blog right if no tweet shweet =D? I knew you’d say YES *wipes away tears* ~I lowe you! *sniff* *hehem*.
OMG :O! It’s going to be the 2nd day without tweeting \m/ I’m SO proud of myself :’)
*hehem*.
Nobody misses me there. =/ Not fair. :’( Anyhow. I miss me. :P Ok that didn’t make sense. Cut the crap Nosh *bangs head in the wall* :P -_- Uff.
Ok ok seriously talking now :P It’s just that I’m so happy, excited, home alone and got SO much to tell youuuuuuu =D =D =D
Yesterday was ok. I studied. Andddddddd…That’s it. =/ School was okay too XD.
I had fun today :D And I’m really tired now XD. Want to sleep but can’t. =/
Ok now as I said the word “sleepy” I feel like closing my eyes right now and sleep while sitting. *bangs head in the wall*.
Have to start with Chemistry with Zunman at 6. And before that I got finish up the Biology practical kay questions. Shoot me. Exams next week. Kill me. A party after the exams. Don’t kill me :D
You know Annie’s friend bought me a gift today…A shirt…Sad part is…IT WAS TIGHT TO ME :O! And it was the largest size 8-). Noo I’m not that fat now. =/
Like it looked nice. But…Crap :’( Getting it exchanged :P
I had a glass of milk in the morning. And ate one slice of bread. Breakfast. :P
Don’t know when was the last time I had proper breakfast. =/
Today Bio was fine. Chem was fine too. Did the sheets in the class. I do so silly mistakes man. =/ Break was awesome :P Food <3 *hehem*
Soo afterrrr Physics ki class…We 7 girls [Me, Zonia, Rija, SaraH, Mishal, Iqra and Amna XD :D] went to the back room…And so..
Lights off. We drove a plane. We rolled over on the floor and then Amna rolled on top of us all. We yelled. Laughed like hell. Held hands and made Amna try to separate ‘em :P [She looked so scary in the dark doing that :P Swear she looked possessed :P]
Mishi was biting. LOL! Seriously -_- I’m fine. Even though she tried biting me twice :P
-_- We were laying down for a bit. And Mishi told us a story of a girl named “Bunda” and a guy name “bundi” *dies of laughter* Was Hilarious :P
Omg! I hear cats….Fighting? o_O Shucks. Scary man. *shivers*. =/
And crap I was supposed to finish this post in 15 minutes and be off by 5 -_-
It’s 5:11 -_- And when I came from school. I washed the dishes :D Anddd theennn I saw k Mom hadn’t cooked anything for today XD. And I just needed an excuse to cook Egg-Fried-Rice :D So I made those. XD. Then Mom’s friend came over. And Annie’s friend too. -_- Set the lunch. Then made tea \m/ Then just chilled thinking what am I going to do. Got to do good in the exams. Then enjoy. Party. Lose weight. Go to uni. Get a job. Marry. Have kids. Chill with ‘em. Love ‘em. Get ‘em educated. Make ‘em read my blog. And then die. \m/ Bus that’s it. -_-
And so that’s it I guess :D I gotta finish bio before calling zunman over :O!
[I hate putting the title -_- I always have a problem with it. Anyhow "40 minutes" was just this song I was singing right now...]
Bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye :D :D :D :D
G'nyte XD. Slptyte, Swtdreams. Take care and have a nice day tomorrow XD.
~Lowe you~

Another Weird day...

Hey =D
Ok don’t go on the “=D” emoticon. Because I’m not really so happy and not in the mood to jump around happily and tweet like somebody who has just lost it XD.
Today I’m going to study with Zunman XD.
This way we both will tweet less and study more.
My eyes hurt XD. Yes, I cried. =/
And who bhi in school. Acchaa Shhh I’ll tell you what happened. =P
I got up in the morning *hehem* Ok that’s nothing big :P
Got dressed –put cream on my hands-took a sip of water-wore my abaya—walked to school [Pst. I LOVED the weather in the morning XD. How I wish could go out for walks – in my black hood =p – all by myself XD]
Then Cjblufox and I were dead tired. Her head on my shoulder and my head on her head XD
[Zunman = I wanted to take a picture of you both :P]
[Oh o I’m having boiled potatoes =D They look so yummy with salt and mirchain =D :P]
Ok pause. I don’t want to bore you [or the 40 years old me, who would be reading this blog after 24 years =/] - [and pst.and my children *hehem* =P]
So my little brain started to worry a little when I saw how much of Chem is coming in the exam
And that I don’t know 70% of it =/
But I was fine…..THEN….Cjblufox said “something” which pissed me off =/
At this point I started to talk a little less with everyone. XD =P
And then me, Ramsha and Zonia asked the maid if we could go up the roof XD. =/
She said ok. So went up and had a good laugh and made fun of how dumb Ramsha is…
When Mrs. W passed by….And told Amna to call us down =/
She was SO pisssed. Like we did a huge sin or something =/
Dude…It was just a roof =/ Kill me please.
Khair this was the point number 3 that made me go even more quiet.
[Oh hahahhaha btw we were talking to the maid and she asked us…
“Do you have any boyfriends?”
And all 3 pf us giggled XD. And said No.
And then she said “I had 3 when I was in school”…And were like “=/” *hehem*]
~ Oh and I’m wearing these other small earrings =D Circle-ish =D ~
Then we had to go to the computer lab where this dude had to tell us about the Prince Edward Island XD. Went cool. Impressed. [This was the last major push. Where I was SO sad that it looked like I was REALLY angry!] I ignored everyone from my class then =/ I know…That was REALLY rude of me =/ Kill me.
So I went downstairs and sat on the chair. Girls going up and down. I could hear some play out. Laughing. Talking. Many asked if I’m ok XD. “Yeah I’m fine” XD.
Why am I SO scared of the future? We should be scared…Nae? =/ I fear my future XD. And because of my fear I ruin my present. By being sad. Angry. XD
At times I feel strong XD. That I can do it. I will do it. And when I achieve all my goals…I’ll look back at my past…and ask myself…“What were you scared off :)?”
And times I feel like what I felt today. Wanted to be lost forever. Felt that nothing will happen XD That my dreams are just too big XD. And that it’s better to leave them as dreams XD And that I won’t be able to do anything even if I want to XD
So anyhow, at home time Hajra Nadeem was hugging me when Mrs. SM came over to us XD
And asked me what was wrong XD. “….Do you feel low or something?..”
“Nothing Mrs…I’m fine” XD
She comes over and hugs and kisses me on my cheek. XD And asked me once more XD
And there. All the eyes on me. My stupid tears came out as if I’ve never cried before.
She took me by my arm to the stage…There we sat…and talked XD She made me feel better =)
DON’T YOU JUST LOWE MRS. SM!!! =D WELL, I DO!! =D =D
And and she told me a secret =D =D And then before leaving she kissed me on right cheek! =D XD
So am I fool? Retard? I guess not. I was just under a little pressure XD. Future-Pressure XD *hehem*
And DUDE! I have SO many white hair now *dies*.
OLD? = Haw. Shutup dude. =/ I’m just 17 years and 11 months =P Shh.
I stopped Zunman from lecturing me XD. =/ Told her to write in the comment what ever she wanted to tell me XD. So if you have any lecture-type-thing for me…Comment XD! =) :P
Love you.

NCJ-ay XD.

Pst. Pahhahaha. Yeah “Blah” has been replaced by “Pst”. =D =D :P *hehem*.
Hahaha yeah I do use too much of emoticons XD. Not good? Too bad. I like it :P -_-
So my favorite word keeps on changing. Oh o I want to tell you a few =D
Awesome, Shuck-se-doodle-doo =D, Freak of nature =/…..and Blah and Pst. =D
So last night I slept at 2…And it felt like I just closed my eyes…and my alarm is ringing -_- And OMG! YOU WON’T BELIEVE ME :O! *dies*.
In the morning…When my alarm rang….I could hear my cell phone saying…
“Twitter…Twitter...Twitter...” =/ I’m crazy..Nae? =P But I swear it happened.
Pst. So the whole day was…a waste? Awesome? Weird? =/
Didn’t study a single word XD. For the first 4 lessons…Running here and there…Fixing up the board with all the Biology stuff XD. Oh how I wish I could remove my picture :P
Then then theennn Me, cjblufox and doubleydee walked and walked XD. Had Barbican \m/ Oolala I love it XD <3>
[No no I don’t like everything :P I don’t like 7up =/ Kill me.] And we actually “ditched” physics :P [like ditch ditch = bunk -_-] But then turned out that Mrs. wasn’t even in the class :P So blah. So much for bunking double physics. =/ Hm. I had so much to blog about. And now I don’t know what to say. =/
O well, am going to Doubleydee’s house tomorrow =D Have SO much in mind :D :D :D Gna make an awesome presentation =D And stars and and stuff = Blah. I’m gna die from excitement :P :D And I can’t wait to see her cats =D And the kitties =D Aaaaaaaaaa. *screams*.
Yes another thing. I love them. XD Make my life so great XD. Make me cry with happiness XD. “Plane take me away” XD. Make Physics lessons interesting. Make the world a better place. We 3 can enjoy like hell whether you leave us in the middle of the ocean or at the top of the mountain or in a desert or in the middle of the forest XD. [Cool. I’d like to go to all those places with you both :’)] I love your hair cjblufox XD. I love your Dimple DoubleyDee. I love they way you guys imitate me XD. Make fun of me :P How we share food XD. How we understand each other XD. A day without Cjblufox seems like a year XD. [Trust me. Not exaggerating =P] And being pissed at anyone who takes Doubleydee for some work when we 3 are together *bangs head in the wall*. *sigh* And how we 3 stood today hand in hand looking up in the sky talking to God. XD. How you guys make me sit in the middle when you both want to put your heads on my shoulder. How you know what I feel with one glance XD. How we plan to marry at the same time *hehem*. Plan to get our kids married together :P And how we plan to meet up in the grave together :P XD. ~ I do love you guys a lot ~
And HajraNadeem wanted me to write more about how this is our…like last 3 months together XD. O’ boy. I know every one goes through this XD. School ends. University life totally different XD. Not with the people you love [often.]
How is it going to be for me?
I cried [:$] when Cjblufox went to Khobar for 2 days -_- *Sigh*. =/ I won’t write more about this =/
Blah. Oh crap. I was going to say something deep and pst, nice. But I forgot again. =/ Lol, Yeah was on twitter :P Oh oh in my last post I was going to write something and I forgot -_- I remembered it that day when I was in bed. -_- I was going to say that this is a test right XD. God is testing us XD. Our patience XD. Our love. Xd. Our faith XD. Our everything. XD.
Let’s just pray we get an A* =D =D =D InshAllah XD. O Love you God! <3>
Talking about *cough* A*…I just remembered the unit tests we have next week =/ Kill me. *dies*. After I’m done with writing this post…I’m going to do the next chapter of Chemistry =D Oh shucks I’ve gotta type out the Exam paper for my Uncle XD. He teaches….Men who are like 30 years old and stuff =/ How cool is that =/?
Like I want to do that :O! :P Teaching people older than you XD. *sigh*. When I’ll be old enough…I shall be a Doctor XD. I shall own the best flower shop EVER! I will have the best cake shop EVER! And I wanna built an orphanage XD. I want to go around the world. XD. I want to do so much. At times it does feel like is too short XD. O well…This is the plan till now XD. =D Nice nae :D? Say yes even if it’s not. :P :D
[Nosh: WHAT? You’re not coming to DoubleyDee’s place? *mouth open*
Cjblufox: 16 cats man…I’m allergic….
DoubleyDee: not forcing you to come man…
Nosh: Yeah, Not forcing you to come….Just that if you don’t come I’ll kill you…And not cry….And bury you…And then kill myself after a week…And then DoubleyDee will kill herself because it’s all her fault.
DoubleyDee: See we’re not forcing you. =)]
LOL! Yes this how lame we are. =/ =P *hehem*. Oh oh and do check out my new podcast tomorrow night XD. With DoubleyDee and Cjblufox as my guests :P :D
[Oh and am having a headache. Don’t ask why. -_- but I wanna tell :D :D :P We sniifffedd a lot on the marker 8-) That’s it :P I won’t tell anymore :P]
Take care XD.
~Lowe you all~

Back again XD. =P

Hahahaha. Okay lol! Sorry random attacks :P Like these days I’m just sitting and I start laughing…I just remember something funny that happened in school or something somebody said on twitter or something I read in somebody’s blog XD :D And then I’m all so serious -_-
I want me to be happy. All the time. No matter what happens XD. I know. It’s impossible :P
I’m pissed off for no reason at times then =/ I hate it when I do that. I’m all so blah blah and I start complaining to DoubleyDee and Cjblufox XD. And they hate that more than I do :P I love you guys XD :D
Seriously…What a life…
(1.) Twitter.
(2.) Twitter.
-And- [guess what next :P *hehem*]
(3.) TWITTER!! :P :D *claps* :P Lol. #Lameness. =P
Blah and I’m blogging after quite a long time XD. Many reasons. First…sorry I can’t tell you :P Second…Nothing to blog about :S Like I just usually tweet everything XD. And then I don’t feel like repeating everything in the blog…And thirdly….nothing :D :P
Oh oh I put pink nail polish on my left hand and bright red on my right =D :P
And and Lol I started wearing earrings…like small ones :D Blah I never did before. Used to think that I look like a retard. But blah. I want to wear ‘em now =D Am wearing these “S” shaped ones right now =D
And and thank you XD. For…Blah. Everything? XD.
And hahaha I have the pictures of the presentation XD. Lol funny *bangs head in the wall* Like seriously. =/ Bahaha Mrs. SM was laughing at my picture :$ :$ She made me do what I was doing in the picture :$ :P
Going crazy listening to this song…And I still don’t know its name -_-
It’s 12. Great. Still got to do the Chem sheets, bio test, Chem test and gotta make the graphs for the survey XD. Kill me.
And my throat is kinda really annoying me XD. LOL! And every time I say “Annoying”…The first thing that comes to mind is “HIBA!”
Ask me why why why why :D :D :D :P Haan main batati hoon sabar kero :P
She loves the way I say “annoying” :P
Bahaha :P
So last night I was walking to Panda with Dad…Who was lost in his own thoughts XD [I love you Dad.] And I was thinking so weird stuff XD. Like I don’t know how to explain it :P I never know how to explain anything *cries on the bed* =/
Like I had this feeling…I was thinking about God XD. It was just wonderful XD.
I was looking up at the black sky…And was saying in my head…
“God, I know you’re looking at me from up there :P” *hehem*
And stuff like that XD. He made me. He made you. He decided everything for us.
I mean I know you all know this stuff...Right? Even I knew it since long…
But when you actually give it a thought…Think about him…It just feels great XD. No matter what you are…Where you are…What problems you have…
I felt free. Its just that - *tweets* - And blah I forgot what I was going to say :P XD
O man twitter just ruined my mood of saying stuff :P Blah. So I hope you got what I was trying to say back then XD. :D
Mid-term exams are like lol less than a month away XD. And I haven’t done a crap =/
This is the point where I hate internet. Hate twitter. Hate MSN even though I don’t use it much now. =/ And then I hate me for not taking stuff seriously. And then in the end I hate you all twitter friends :P For making twitter a fun place :D I like talking to you guys (Y).
And you know what…I’ve been having twitter dreams = Like I dream of talking to a few friends there. =/ And then when I go online all so excited…thinking that she/he might have tweeted me :D…And I click “@sheenamalik”….I get busted :D :P
Thinking about the time passing by so quickly is freaking the hell out of me XD. Not because exams are gonna be here :P *hehem*. But because….It’s a Good-bye to school life =/ Good bye to Mrs. SM [My favorite teacher XD :’)] Good bye to my class mates XD. To my best pals XD [DoubleyDee, Cjblufox and HajraNadeem XD] Good bye to a couple of friends in other classes XD.
*Sigh* I want to blog more..But lol it’s gna be quite lonnnggg :P And you’ll get bored :P And on top I don’t have time :P It’s late and I told a few friends to read my blog before sleeping..So don’t want to keep ‘em waiting XD.
I hope I blog sooon :D
G’nyte XD Thanks for reading the post :P :D :D :D
Sleeptyte, Sweetdreams XD Take care and have a nice day tomorrow XD
Love you all XD :’) *waves*.
[Bet I have mistakes :P Please lemme know :P]
[I've reached my twitter limit again -_- Like 2 times in a day. Kill me. Lol. I feel SO left out now =/ :'(]

Blah.