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Friday, June 5, 2009

And never let go.

G'mrnin world =)
I'm blogging =P This is the only thing I can do in the morning when I'm alone =/ Wanted to blog soo much..specially about some stuff that Rija wrote and i didn't like it =/ not in the sense that it was like you know bad or something...it was great...she writes good...but I was against the way she thinks about some stuff...like the womanizer and that mothers day one =/ It's not her fault either =/ we all have different views about things...couldn't blog because of 3 things =( one I never got the right time...second I felt as if I you know my blog is useless and careless piece of work..like I write because it feels good..but I also write because I know my friends would read it...but like whats the use =/ you guys know me so well...and thirdly I didn't want to blog because checkout my blog man =P such a stupid layout =/ check out the colors =/ look at the titles I gave =P I mean I don't know =/ It's just this thing in me...I feel as if you know...like Rija's and SaraH's and Dudy's blogs are perfect =) and and everything is like arranged properly and it looks nice...You guys are so neat =/ and I'm not...it's hard to believe I'm a part of you guys XD and here I am saying it again...we all are different =)
It's the third day since the last exam =/ first day was great..enjoyed like hell with Hiba and Ramsha =)
The second day sucked...Don't know how the third day will be...It's going to be fun...at least that's what I'm telling myself =/...
For me..life sucks at the moment...Just so confused these days...I'm so upset these days...I know why I'm such a cry-baby =/ It's just that at this age I'm going through alot of bad times...and when something happens or somebody says somethig to me...no matter how small or silly it is...this one little thing..piles up on to the huge mountain of tensions and worries I already have...and when it does...heart starts feeling heavy...and I then i start crying =/
Just want God to do something...to break this mountain..to take it all away...
I don't know when am I going to see bhai =( If he comes...everythings going to be better...I'll be happy...house is so incomplete without you bhai XD my life is incomplete without you XD
I always wanted to have loads of more brothers...and give them all my love...and be the best sister ever...(which I am now too =P)...(If we think about it =/ I wanna give all my love to so many people =P...and I want to be the best-something always XD I don't know if that is like you know mean of me or something =/ Wait. I'm crazy. Thats not mean of you Nosh :| Stop thinking like this XD *shakes nosh* I AM going to be the best...daughter...sister...friend...love...wife...mother...aunt...and grandmother =) ) ----> o crap I hate that double line =/...yea so I was saying be the best sister ever...i never realised that how lucky I am to have at least 1 brother...until I met SaraH...and since then...I have thanked God so much...for giving me bhai...and I learned a lesson from that...no matter what the thing is...never be greedy...thank God for what he gave you XD
When he'll come I'll make sure he fixes my sound card =/ I'm so bored without...the music I download..have to make sure they are mp3...and then I transfer them to my cell...and I have to watch so many movies and stuff =( have to wait for Annie to come home so I can use her laptop...and seriously I don't like using the laptop..I'm way more comfortable with my this stupid computer...I love you computer =)
It's going to be so cool...having him around...he'll take us out =) and playing late night with Annie and Bhai is so awesome...and he'll buy coffee and ice-creams for us...and we will also go to Dad's farm...do a little hiking...(once Annie held camels poo =P poor thing =P she didn't know what it was :P and the other time...we were up on the mountain...and she's walking walking walking...and she fell inside a hole-type-thing haha and when we pulled her out she was all brown and sandy=P and the pictures we took were so crazy :P Last time when we went...everybody was like on the top of the mountain...haha and i was not even near half of it =P and I was all so freaked out and bhai took pictures of me from above and I looked like a tiny idiot sitting down on the rocks =P and I was so freaked out that I couldn't go down =P and my lovely jannu bhai came all the way from the top...held my hand...and helped me down XD..)...and and bhai would ask me to make tea for him...and I'd make excuses and faces XD but then I'd make it for him...because he is my bhai =) and I love him alot =)
I'm happy again =) sometimes blogging makes me sad...and then at times it makes me smile...because I realise more...and the importance of the thing I write...increases...wait that didn't make sense =/ o crap.
"....want to wrap you in my arms....hold you close to my heart...and never let go..."
(It's not a lyric =P I wrote that myself *proud smile* OK Nosh. Enough :| It's not a big deal :| yes it is =( OK OK...what ever makes you happy -----> Rija's line XD)

5 comments:

  1. When your msn pm said "Surprise I'm blogging" I could not stop smiling.
    Still smiling :)

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  2. heheheeh =P
    im smiling too now =P

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  3. I've been waiting for you to blog since ages!
    =D

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  4. khekheke guyz :| i love my blog :|

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  5. first of all ur blog is not useless or careless or messy or anything else u said plus i like the fact tht u write this stuff....i mean i havent seen u for like 4 years now so i can see whts going on with u :D awwwwwwwwwww u really miss ur bhai, thts so cute :) im sure he appreciates having u as a sister :D

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